That guy next door

been a rough week

2009-03-21T08:41:00.000-07:00

its has been a tough week for me .. hmm .. ruhing here and there to get things done .. travelling to singapore jus for tuition and more tuition ..

come to think of it .. its quite worth the trouble and time .. knowing what you studied and what you ought to study .. some times i wonder what if i am unable to pass my exams .. Although its jus five subjects .. the thoughts of it sucks .. many topics in the subjects are totally new .. like what are these !!!

i tried .. i put my fair share of concentration into it ..
what comes out of it .. who knows ..

Gonna start english tuition next week ..
kinda anxious about it .. wonder how the teacher and students there are like .. paid a quite fee for this tuition ..

well .. if all goes well hope improvement with success comes into light .. than i don have to worry abt anything at all ..

jus study and study till the every day of my exams arrive ..
than i am ready for it with no fears or anxiety !! hope so

Been watching a few moving this few days .. dragon ball evolution and pink panther 2
one of it is hilarious .. another one is jus another story gimmick that every little child read through their childhood ..
kinda nice though .. the animation and the illustration of the story title .. but duh ..

the movie is jus too short .. jus an hour plus or so ...

Gonna save money for my ipod and handphone .. Ipod think around let's say 1000 rm .. and handphone what till the deals get better in singapore .. well .. life still goes on ..

Wonder When will fall in love again !! laughs .. but not now ..
kinda crucial time for me ..a changing point in my life .. an education stand in the fuck-up society .. well '

come to think of it .. Thinks colleage life seems fun .. Laughs ..

hmm i wonder

2009-02-25T08:59:00.000-08:00

sometimes i wonder does speaking agressively or being aggressive in conversation or wad so ever helps .. hmm

well ..

Jus wanna know for the Sake of ???

And by doing so wad do you get back !!!

Should you be proud of it !!!

hmm ... live life the way you wanna be and you get it

Not acting or showing off something you should or have been would make you a better person ..

Friends don't always stay ..

they come and go

Seeking a better future

And not living in a coconut shell and live life you had or had been living for the past few decades ..

things don always stay the same !!

things i realised

2009-02-25T08:49:00.000-08:00

hmm .. i just don't know why some people are so unreasonable and have so much character problem .. its like low upbringing in life

been trying to amends the things that are already shredded .. but after what i have tot screw that .. cant be bother any more ...

Just wanna concentrate on what i am doing now .. how other people live their life is their bloody matter ...

i wont't give a heck .. like everyone does ..

Been a dissapointment ..

After what i have learn .. friends don really last that long .. everything come and goes .. the earth is round ..

Wad an damm unreasonable person you had been ..

going to brush up my maths and science between this 3 weeks .. chiong arr ..

than do revision le .. no time to waste

after that shoot off to other place and study le ..

Can some one teach me wad to do

2009-02-24T08:52:00.000-08:00

my whole family are graduates .. mother -sides father sides .. left me onli

this fucked up person i have been

all along

where should i shoot from here now

the stress that i am having now

2009-02-24T08:34:00.000-08:00

Been stupid for the three years . finally i grown up .. realised that many things in life are't so easy .. now i am going back to studies .. wad a fuck fucked person i have been

but realising it is not to late but the thoughts of O levels and am i abled to cope with the syallabus hat singapore have inforced .. makes me wanna go to a corner and bang a wall.

hais..
i promised myself to give myself another chance og redeemtion .. i won't screw my this chance any more .. but as a private candidate ..

i feel that i lack alot behind ..

Nothing much for me to say now ..

i hope i give all my best and shoot out of singapore to another collage .. that's all //

other than that fuck it ..

Can anybody body help me in my subjects !!!

gosh .. Feel like wacking a few people !!!

my new year resolution

2008-12-27T23:16:00.000-08:00

hmm .. its been quite a awhile seems i have even bothered to touch my blog .. hmm .. let's talk about the recent celebrations that i celebrated .. christmas .. hmm ..

Met caiying dhoby ghaut mrt .. As the rest of them wanted to take something else .. No brainer's .. Fancy taking this type of thing on christmas day .. my goodness .. can't be bother .. lucky caiying ask me out the last min .. or else i be muddle-headed where to go .. To think of the past .. i always have lots of friends to go around and celebrate with .. but now everything seems to change .. hmm

We headed off to waterloo st underage party .. wad a crowded place to be .. all the guys and girls there .. i still rmb 2 yrs ago attica underage party .. had the exact same situation .. saw a few ppl at there .. One of them is called monster .. hmm .. he used to be a small boy .. following my friend in a gang .. but now wow .. he seems to be bigger sized .. i can't even recognise him .. After that i asked him .. last time you follow my friend de izzit .. hmm ..

hmm than we headed to Oasis .. could't go in too .. as many of caiying friends were like underage .. later we decided to head to boat quey .. had many memories over there .. felt like crying .. hmm .. it took me a long time to stand up again .. swear i won't be so soft-hearted again sia .. for fuck ?? rite??

hmm .. Really wondering do i really have some little feeling for her .. my gosh .. did't expect to turn out this way .. As we knew each other since 2007 .. i think its like two years ago .. nahx its jus illusion in a unexpected way .. wad the hell ..

really wonder when will i settle down .. really wonder which girl can really tight me up .. Haha

hmm.. this is my pathetic little life

2008-11-25T12:35:00.000-08:00

my little pathetic life that i lived everyday .. Don really no what i am aimlessly living for .. Well this one year 2008 .. have teach me many things in life .. Although i have no many ppl to console at .. this is where i learn things thru the hard way to learn the easy way out .. get what i mean .. everybody is stubborn by nature .. Learning that time waits for no man .. in a blink of an eye .. many of my friends have already done much accomplishments in life .. some have already got their diploma .. Stubborn and stupid of me to realised it so late ..

well .. it ok .. everybody deserve a second chance .. A second apportunities to cover for the mistakes and stupidity that have took over me ..
Well i have already ask for an enrolment in chec .. hmm .. this time i don really wanna mess up my life again .. and mess up my future .. the state i am in now seems so fuck-up ..
if i listen to my parents back than .. i would have already got at least another cert .. now i have come back to square 1 ..

hmm .. next monday got test examination .. for english and maths .. hmm .. wonder should i quit my this job .. and brush up on my studies first .. but even if i quit my job .. i have lots of spare time .. I know taking O-level .. is't hard .. just need patience to study ..
It was a really long long time i had to endure .. before and after i get into a private school .. wonder how would my parents pay for my school fees .. hope my permanent residence application goes through well enough ..

really have to brush up on my studies if i really wanna score well .. Well i though of a way .. since i be enrolling into school next year .. january .. i will take this time to study .. i know i don have much patience to sit don and concentrate .. so what i thought of was .. brush up my grammer and vocabulary .. in a certain given time ..

i am not going to fuck my life up once again .. trust me .. i gonna treasure this golden opportunty .. perpharps i should quit my job after next week .. secure my pay first .. What i am afraid is the pub don pay me in full amount as the given stated salary .. so gor the time being .. Got to swallow my saliva and continue working ..

been working at soho since last week ..

2008-11-22T13:21:00.000-08:00

this is my eleven day working at soho room .. hmm .. hmm .. got live band and Deejay .. quite enjoyable .. but some times veri bored when there's is't nth to do ..

angry till like toot today .. ppl come and peng wei .. ccb .. macam i owe you like that .. act like a freaking gundu .. wahlao .. today alomost got fight in soho room .. hmm .. think of it also can laugh .. becos of i think one party not happy the way de other party cheers drink or something .. than want to fight like that .. act onli sia .. than police man walk over .. ask the guy go home ..
kao .. actually .. those working at pub de .. haiya .. say nice enough .. onli sit there you look at me i look at you .. everybody look at everybody .. got fight jus go over there say police .. knn .. my father also know sia .. but too bad la .. my father so old liao ..

ah chew today told me angry also no used .. must know how to control temper .. hmm .. say Becos of money than we all like that .. also true la .. Asked me give him face .. wahlao .. don understand .. not my fault also must give you face .. if i nv work at there .. give you eat my slipper arr ..

sunday outing

2008-11-09T11:40:00.000-08:00

today went out singapore .. did't meet anybody at first .. hmm .. lazy lah .. when straight to plaza sing .. did't walk around the shopping centre .. felt that nth interest me .. hmm .. when to collect pay straight away .. turn-ed me on right away .. hmm .. about 490 plus .. minus the money i owed to my aunty .. 390 .. but haven pay yet .. intend to pay soon ..
than went over to esplanade .. meet up with xiaobai .. she's really getting fatter .. growing more round le .. but what the hell .. At least's she happy with what she have now .. nth comes more than that right ?? ..
walk here and there no motive .. than xiaobai ask me look at a display .. it's located at a underpass .. kinda stupid .. with singlish .. don understand what's the motive .. than we took mrt down to marina square .. walk here and there .. than went to marina square kopitiam .. sat the brought two drinks .. sat the for quite long .. talked bout everything and anything .. that's life i perceive ..
than i suggested long john sliver .. missed and long-ed for the cheese over there .. my gosh everything in price hike up .. According to xiaobai .. even the mayo requires 20 cent .. Ass you lah ..
ever consider abt those ppl who are not that rich ..

hmm .. we talked about everybody .. hmm .. kinda funny i wonder .. even if those ppl who are already bad .. tend to learn the good way .. its like learning how to turn good thru the hard way ..
but's there always a bunch .. i mean a big big bunch of ppl tried to find a place in this no-point society .. I mean for ..
kinda admire these ppl whom really turn over a good leaf .. i mean have you ever tot of carrying on like this with ur life for the rest of ur miserable life ..
ppl tends to get michievious and playful at times .. but i ought there tends to be a limit to everything .. As i pass by sunplaza today .. saw quite a few ppl .. wow .. could't recognised them .. like 360 change ..
Even those ppl i knew years back in secondary school .. during my times .. turn-ed out to be so Gentle-manly or so lady-like .. my gosh .. Are my eyes playing trick on me ??? doubts so .. but Things don't always remain the same ..

than xiaobai told me she had the thought of touching those things back again .. To slim down .. hmm .. yup .. un-logically yup its a way too .. but .. how much money are you going to throw down the drain .. Frankly speaking.. i also tot of playing it when my life get roughs and so ill .. but .. when i tot of how i endure thru the days when there's is't any money for me to eat .. how i endure .. threw down my face .. friends treated me .. basically everything .. even though they can't even save their own ass .. well .. you live a better life than me .. at least you got a stable job and a seriously stable boyfriend .. thought of the past ..
at least he is abled to sacrifice his happy times .. and you are willing to accept the circumstances ..
what about me .. what a fuck up life i had .. what the hell have i done to Deserve this .. hmm .. Man yuan also no used .. one way or another i asked for it unknowingly ..

be getting my pay soon

2008-11-08T01:58:00.000-08:00

tml will be going out singapore .. to take my last mth pay .. wonder how much will it be .. ha .. still tot of opening chalet .. see how than .. later not enough money all that .. hmm .. still got ppl ask me chu shi for them .. so little money sia .. not like one year ago .. help one sai guan chu .. veri satisfying .. well ..

will be finding job next week .. my first aim .. find pub job .. prefer night life .. tot of my house nearby here .. wonder how would they pay .. will it be acceptable enough .. taunt the last few night at sbw .. boring .. hmm ..

relax"

2008-11-05T03:14:00.000-08:00

hmm .. went out singapore on monday .. felt kinda boring at home .. could't take the boredom .. my gosh .. hmm .. than went to sun plaza .. meet vincent at sun plaza .. chit chat with him .. hmm .. was kinda shocked he got another girlfriend again .. but he seems happy 2gether with her .. happy for him nor .. at least he found an happiness he could rely on .. hmm .. than jieyong and darren came along .. sit down at mos burger talk cock for a veri long time .. heard their story this and that .. always quarrel all this .. wad the toot .. time to grow up don u think so ??

hmm than ah jack came along with weikang and kenneth .. hmm .. sit down and talk talk talk .. hmm .. totally don have money to spent .. hmm .. totally no mood .. than they ask me go along for drinking session at boat quey .. hmm .. at first was like kinda ps .. moreover i was wearing 3/4 pants and slipper .. but they say monday no body de .. haha ..

Called mei yan and willy along 2gether too .. hmm .. in the train we talked and talked .. so fast reached there .. like in a flash .. hmm .. let my troubles blew away .. really relax my self .. i tot "smack that" would be better .. but it prove me wrong ..
this type of outing would prove it better .. but kinda expensive to always have this outing ..

hmm .. we laugh and laugh .. kinda wasted that we nv tooks pictures .. to remind the sweet outing we had .. wad the toot .. than ah jack quarrel with his boss and think his girlfriend .. not veri sure .. than console him .. kinda stupid .. last time is the other way round .. macam older ppl advise me ..

hmm .. i would prefer night life siax .. thought of finding pubs jobs .. night life rocks man .. but where do i begin ..
hmm .. during that outing i called xiaobai .. heard her voice was like dead .. wonder what happen ?? .. well .. tot of having an outing with her and a few more friends .. close one would be better .. but she seems so busy .. if not i would i no money .. one day would come where we would find the time de ..

when will my life change??

Angry .. treeat me as a idiot izzit??

2008-10-31T09:36:00.000-07:00

hmm .. i have been so wrongly accused .. what voucher lost , clothes lost .. cashier money lost .. heng arr onli 10 rm lost ..

Everyday so busy where got time to bother bout this .. as part time i dont think it is my duty .. there is't a cashier there at all .. than what you expevt us to do .. as part-time .. expect the customers to wait .. come on already told you .. my experience more than you .. somemore where were all the full-time when the shop needed people .. Play cashier .. come on la .. As easy as abc .. even my mother also can do that all day long .. need people teach meh .. what put all the blame on me ..

i did came out a word .. money lost nevermind lor .. who touch cashier who pay .. fair enough .. got th to day bout that .. than wad else .. if i want steal money .. come la . use ur stupid dit-wit little brain .. why would i at the first place take so little money .. 10 ringgit .. fuck you la .. for ten dollars i throw away my dignity and get blamed for this ..

than today wake up nv go work and the day b4 that .. today the lady boss msg me .. say ytd nv come so today nv come .. ask me return uniform ... why no responsibilty .. nv turn up for work ..salary for the past few day i am cnt take ..

i was still sleeping .. its was a good thing that i was't that stupid to wake up for work ..
what treat me as this is my first day of work izzit .. hmm .. chiong lim bei sio .. called her ask her why .. i say " miss .. i working as part-time not full-time " why my pay cannot take .. she say" cos you never come for work" .. than i say " this is not the first time i started working " .. than she say " by next mth of 15 must give her back everything .. than she say " but you coem late for work i will deduct " .. i say that one you want deduct i got nth to say " .. What ah lian si bo .. fuck you la hor .. i just come for the money .. not to get humilated ok .. i control my temper .. but you pushed me too hard this time .. I also could't give a shit to your uniform .. who cares bout it .. will return it .. don worry ..

When nth start to happens or get lost .. No body seems to be worried .. but after that .. everydbody seems so concerned .. fuck up

tuesday working day .. 28/10/2008

2008-10-28T05:37:00.000-07:00

hmm .. wonder why are there such hideous people .. hmm .. at my work place there's a girl 17 yrs old .. like that work full time .. hmm .. so bossful .. talk like ah lian lian like that .. what the hell .. but the veri next day i knew she like angkat bola .. angkat the shop supervisor .. No use la .. pls can angkat until where .. promote you to area manger huh .. wait long long la .. i have more working experience ... in service line .. close one eye also can jalan 1 ..

i come late .. i write early timing .. don dare say anything huh .. wait till shop supervisor come back at tua me out izzit .. watch out la .. fucking thorn in the flesh ..

anyway its jus for me to passt ime till next year till i can enrole back to school .. So just pass time and earn some pocket money

wonder why people so fucked up one .. things nv long heck care care .. veri lenient .. vouncher and clothes start to lost .. wah impose this rule and that rule .. pls la .. say what i sleep no heart work or wad ..

come on la .. i close one eye also close more deals than you .. just that my name is not on the computer .. i don get any extra credit for closing more deals .. so why should i bother .. why work full-time more privilages huh ??

b4 supervisor come back face like macam bao jing tian .. supervisor come back wah .. 360 degrees change .. why you hoping for a promotion si bo ?? wait for next yr christmas lor ..

i onli offer lip service .. don get commision . why the hell should i work that extra mile .. for fuck??

tua me and another guy out .. b4 saying ppl look at urself first la ..

hmm .. sunday working life

2008-10-26T08:10:00.000-07:00

hmm .. work at 2 pm today .. drove the car down .. hmmm .. as usual .. late as always .. cos supervisor did't work .. hmm .. who else can control me than ??
went to arcade play game .. go walk walk .. see this thing and that thing .. hmm all like expensive like that ..

hmm .. going to buy a shoe another few more days to come .. hmm .. damm nice .. can wear for outing or formal wear also .. one stone kill two bird ..

As time passes by slowly .. As i work .. kinda admire those who are in a relationship .. Kinda sweet .. the feeling it's like beyond words .. beyond recognition .. Some admit that being in a relationship mean being tied up .. No freedom and all .. but what about those who have all the freedom .. hmm ..

felt that for the few years .. all the relationship was all in a failure .. nothing seems to go right for me .. it's like nothing seems to be in my favour .. What's happening in my life .. Cna someone explaiin to me ..

Why everytime when i fall for someone .. it's just impossible .. just so ridiculous ..

Well ..

hmm .. thursday working life

2008-10-23T08:04:00.000-07:00

hmm .. today working at city square as usual .. from ten am till ten pm .. hmm .. the day was boring .. today came a new guy .. hmm .. chatted thru the day .. Went walk walk in xity square .. see here and there .. brought alot of food to eat .. hmm .. till one stage i dozed off .. can't take the boredom .. hmm .. lucky there was my colleages to accompany me thru chat and talk nonsense .. so life won't be so boring ..

i realised i don really have much friends to confide in .. I realised that although i meet you onli three months ago .. i feel like opening up my heart to you .. feel like telling you .. but what i realised you was jus a passer-by .. whom pass by in my life once ..

tuesday working day

2008-10-21T13:03:00.000-07:00

hmm today work as normanll hmm .. get alittle agitated everytime .. hello it's so freaking boring over there .. hmm .. but jus for the sake of killing time .. hmm .. read my storybook .. that story book that i brought at kl since June .. did't really touch that book at all .. but it's my money .. so i gotta appreciate the storyline of it ..

don really know hat i am been agitated about this few days .. It's so hard to swallow this breath .. hmm .. knowing that i can't keep this to my self .. i know that i unknowingly fell for yoou .. Without a doubt i perceive that it would be better to remain this way ..

i saw a few clothes at polo haus that i wanna buy .. one black polo-shirt .. white one .. grey .. and red .. lastly a black leather shoe .. seems fitting on me .. but its so freaking expensive .. According to my calcutions .. its like 600 rm .. including those black leather shoes ..

I should find a reason to continue living life meaningfully .. Accept the fact that its the way i have to live .. hmm .. don wanna drag my life into a mess anymore ..

first day working in city square

2008-10-20T10:26:00.000-07:00

hmm .. today started my first day of work in city square .. actually first day of work .. i met up with it dozen of time .. keep on changing and jumping different jobs .. well this job seems quite relaxing .. hmm .. quite realx de .. but kinda bored .. have to stand and stand .. like for fuck??

hmm .. my workplace de people also quite friendly .. kinda noisy .. always make noise and gossip about anything and everything .. hmm .. quite fun .. hmm .. veri lenient .. even the supervisor also slacker lai de .. hmm .. so what the fuck .. i could't care less .. even better for us .. hmm ..

first day of work .. hmm met up with this customer .. hmm .. he proclaimed he lost his briefcase .. well .. he requested for many things .. well of course i seek help .. but i managed to closed a 800 ringgit sales from him .. hmm .. kinda delicious .. if i were to get the money .. hmm .. but well closing the deal neither benefits me nor increase my pay .. but well jus for the sake of killing time .. hmm .. a european man .. Gets abt 70 thousand euro per mth .. well according to my calcution its like 2 brand new car every month .. jus his own personal salary .. wHat about his other benefits and incentives .. hmm .. well i can say it's enough for me to sit at home and do nth .. jus enjoy life the way it has to be ..

hmm .. kinda funny .. most of the people there seems reliant on me .. to deal with english-educated background customer .. but well .. i used to get tips from these type of foregne people .. Basically western culture people .. hmm ..

hmm .. well i guess when i was young .. heard many self cultivating stories .. On choosing your own path in life .. stepping on the wrong stone in life .. mixing with the wrong bunch of friend and what not .. well .. i guess it's jus another way for a growing teenager to learn lessons like that thru the hard way to learn the easy way out .. hmm ..

It's time for me to tone down my life-style .. time for me to concentrate on what i wish to have and would like to live in the near coming future .. till the day i have accomplished my goals .. life will naturally come in streamline for me .. I don really wish to live everyday without knowing when i can stand high and feel proud of my self .. hmm .. education seems boring to everybody .. i agreed with no less of a doubt .. i believe its veri agreeable .. but without education where will we all stand in this cruel society .. ?? ...Can some one answer me this

Saturaday life

2008-10-18T12:00:00.000-07:00

woke up early this morning .. when to sunway colleage right after that .. hmm .. enquired bout many things hmm .. but to no avail .. hmm .. flashing back .. what have i been doing with my life for the past few years .. hmm .. why did i got off tracked ..
hmm .. right after that when to eat fish ball noodle at sentosa .. where Nights lifes also seems to be ther with out fail .. hmm ...change alot though ..

Than came out to singapore .. Met up with liming at cwp .. than meet up with wanting .. hmm .. acc her for her lunch break .. chit chatted for an hour or so .. than headed to sbw .. meet up with the rest .. talk abt anything that we could .. hmm ..

than headed down to bugis .. meet xiaobai and ah long at there.. Guess what .. saw celest and qian hui .. hmm ..its been like a freaking few yrs since we got met up .. hmm .. Times seems to wait for No tide .. Chit chatted abt our personal life .. than off I went ..

I finally realised the meaning of liking a person don't reallyy mean you have to chase or be with her .. i kinda choose to Ignore .. i choose to overlook .. Cos i know It's better to continue on with life .. it's kinda more agreeable to have a friend whom you know you won't lose no matter what till the end of time .. hmm .. It's mean Less a problem ..
Kinda impossible though .. What make me felt this way .. hmm .. i guess keeping everything to my self won't seem to solve any thing .. Can't believe my secondary school companion and best buddy Esther gonna get her self married le .. Been a pleasure knowing you .. happy for you ..

there are still many things bothering me .. i mean will i be able to cope with next year .. after registering back for O-Lvl .. hmm Had a thorn in my flesh since i have already decided to ..
hmm ..

Xiaobai did't really mean to delay your time at bugis de .. but .. My life now is jus kinda Fuck up inside out .. i choosed to run everytime .. hmm .. Really wonder If i really Change my character .. Anyway my character is't that screwed up .. Will She come back to me?? ..Well .. been two years .. Just a thought .. No hopes though ..

Everytime i Encounter any mistake be it Problems or conflicts .. i chose to ignore and walk away .. been kinda pain in the ass ..

Really wonder why I will touch this kinda stuff back .. everything have a reason .. i hope i kinda stand up back on my own feet .. And move on with life .. facing the problem that comes ..
Hmm .. My Old time friends are kinda ahead of me in terms of education .. What the hell am i doing ???

Well .. I choose this choice .. i hope you kinda find some1 who really know how to take care of you.. and Not mess up your life .. i Believe your life is Sufficiently screw up alr .. been a pleasure knowing you too .. Friends i choose to be .. hmm .. Don't really wanna screw up or come in between my friends nor whom .. kinda disgusted by this ..

hmm .. friday life

2008-10-17T06:57:00.000-07:00

woke up late today .. ytd see movie till late .. saw disaster movie .. another lame movie to the core .. don really get the picture of the show .. hmm .. than went to guan yin temple jus down the road today .. pray pray all this .. went for lunch .. at a vegetarian restaurant .. hmm .. the food suck there .. everything is based on vegetable and doufu .. eat till like walao ..

hmm ..

when was the last time i blog

2008-10-16T10:53:00.000-07:00

hmm .. its been a long time since i even bothered to touch my blog .. well ..
hmm .. got a job last month .. at plaza sing .. Was a nice job good pay and all .. but the only factor that was bothering me was insufficient sleep .. but some how i could't get my work permit .. Well too sad for me also .. had to leave the place .. Most of the ppl there were like mostly foreigners .. well .. malaysians ..

hmm .. the thought of me going back to study happened when i was working at plaza sing .. hmm ..although i have a strong command of english .. i don't stand a chance as compare to them .. they are like grauduate from somewhere .. learn a traits or two .. but well .. i decided to upgrade my self .. so many things happened back than ..

last few days , when to city square to ask for job .. walk around look around .. hmm .. lots and lots of memories came back ..hmm ..
i may be one step slower than him but .. what is over is over .. mayb its jus a fling .. or something .. did't expect my self to fall for you .. well ..
tot of huijun too .. well .. she might have hurt me alot might had make me change alot .. come to think of it back again.. hmm .. jus memories .. wonder if really one day can we make up or find some1 better .. hmm .. actually gotta lots and lots of stuffs i feel like to burst out ..
well .. i did't know how to chase after you .. you were my friend .. but the thought of it was like ..
hais .. its been a long time .. i even forget how to chase a girl liao .. well .. but .. As i tot that being friends with you would save another friendship ..
cause i usually see that most of the outcome that relationships .. have no happy ending .. well put it this way no positive outcome .. Well you are assemble jus like huijun .. hmm .. really know how to cheer ppl up .. all those thingys .. hmm ..

why am i in this pile .. don i deserve something better .. i mean .. when's my luck really gonna change .. Why whenever i get to know some1 new the next moment it's alr been another outcome ..
I really wonder .. if really one day when will i find someone that's suitable for me ..
well .. i have finally decided .. too take a big step ahead in front of me .. go back and study .. hmm .. yes i believe it's a great challenge .. but would it be more satisfying if you graduate able to go poly .. hmm .. that's an positive outcome ..

i don believe that in a matter of months to come .. i am unable to withhold .. what sort of trouble have i not gone thru .. hmm .. i guess i was the one who was supposed to go thru the hard way to learn the easy way out .. hmm .. what's more trouble is there for me to endure ..
Next yr is like a golden arrow to score thru the forest .. jus imagine a golden seeking its way out of the forest .. hard it may be .. blindfolded it may seems .. but wit much confidence it will find it's way out ..

its been a long long time , i have ever ever settle down and think what's is happening to me ..
some people used to say walk one step count one step .. than i would add on " hai guo tian kong.. well its's kinda of a nonsense if you would tell me tis now .. have been wasting my past two yrs for fuck >.
hmm .. well .. its not too late for me to plan my future now .. hmm .. what the hell ...
Nobody born perfect .. kinda interested singapore casino .. with it's shortage of manpower ..
i mean seriously .. think abt that .. mayb 5 yrs down the road .. the most shortage of manpower would be there .. jus imagine .. hotels casinos restaurants .. and futhur more ..
i mean its a great place to invest ur interest and studies into ..

well .. everybody have to constantly upgrade them self ..
Finally i realised after livinf for the past 19yrs .. survival for the fittest ..

saturaday night

2008-07-19T13:52:00.000-07:00

hmm .. today woke up late .. as it was saturaday .. a day for me to sleep in without worries .. hmm .. can't stand the life here anymore .. feel like going back jb to stay le .. hmm .. but there's alot of things and accessories for me to handle .. haha .. computer and stuff .. how ?? .. nvm .. next yr i am leaving for good .. hmm .. till a better offer stand b4 me .. than say bahx ...

hmm .. realised that in this realistic world .. people tend to procrasinate abt themselves and how good they tend to be .. some sort of compliment themselves abt how good they tend to be or will stand by ur side in time of needs .. but i realised it all craps and bull shit .. don really wanna write more abt it .. hmm .. wonder how are my secondary school friends doing?? .. hmm .. heard many of them are still studying ..And learning how to reward themselves while they get the chance to .. My few most closest secondary schools "girl-friend" . turned to mei-nu le .. hmm .. such a sudden change .. times flies really fast .. Did't really get to meet them till of late .. but i guess many of them have their own personal private life le .. Not like secondary school days .. well As what i always say .. Police used to wear short pants .. but now police wear longs pants .. Self-upgrading bahx .. Wish you guys to have blissful days ahead of you ..

Mayb i should't get my self to involve too much in everything le .. just learn how to live a normal life .. hmm .. out of a sudden i felt that many conversation and words of mouth make it to real in life ... just fakes and bluff .. hmm .. Well .. this is veri pathetic but realistic .. hmm .. But it's too young for me to settle down at a place .. or what so ..
i still have the temptation to get out and play ..

Craps and hypocrate .. get the meaning ??
Especially those who talk like they would give you this and that .. take you out la .. what ever it may seems .. Men without word of honour ..this best describes it ..

friday night

2008-07-18T08:31:00.000-07:00

seems boring today ... hmm .. went for a long drive just now just to collect a few things .. hmm .. Was thinking .. what possibly could happen between my close ones and all .. have time came in between .. or have we been so caught up with our own life .. well .. i can say is .. who knows .. i am also wondering .. well this is just a website i can fall back to .. to write things mades me go confused abt ..

wonder should i just heck de car park fine .. three HDB carpark fine .. or Just rent a car in jb .. and drive out to singapore .. hmm .. either way .. both sounds expensive .. What should i do .. these car park fines are giving me a headache since the day i came back .. but .. my car onli left 2 VEP days .. that mean i got onli two more free days .. till the end of this yr .. sounds so pathetic ..
But if i don pay de carpark fines .. also can .. the most reach singapore take bus and Mrt .. It's not like i hacen don't b4 .. but having a car seems so convenient .. but it really depends on what car you have .. if you tend to fall to have my car .. good luck .. you need lots of patience when it comes to maintanance ..

To my dearest kan-jiejie ..

2008-07-18T08:21:00.000-07:00

For what it may seem .. for what have happen .. mayb time have come in between us .. but if you were to ask me to leave you .. or for what ever reason there is .. please give me a better excuse .. mayb all of us are all too caught up with our own life .. for better or for worst .. i will still attend ur b'dae .. if there is one .. or u are intending to open one ..

Don't really know who to call out at times .. Cos some time scare these ppl i am with this and that .. like the perception you are having .. just like Ah ann .. So it's like me meeting ... one by one .. to avoid the unnesscary conflicts .. well ..

anyway .. if you are going to celebrate ur b'dae .. do remind me early .. as i have three HDB summon to pay .. Yet to be paid .. than i can drive this car out ..
Can't take the life here .. too too boring ..

most probably i won't be going down so soon .. till near ur b'dae or so .. so i can save more money b4 spending it .. sounds nice lei ..

today no mood write alot .. today wait for car repair till 7 plus .. total of 4 hrs .. than eat le .. drive down malacca collect things .. now than reach home .. hais ..

perpharps i could take a long vacation somewhere else .. tired of working life .. kan kan bo liao 1 ..

today work was boring /.

2008-07-17T08:35:00.000-07:00

hmm .. today woked up late again .. hmm .. cos ytd drive up from jb at around 9 plus .. reach around nilai .. around 12 plus .. slow driving .. arbo at nite gt accident this and that .. hmm .. actually don feel like working here le .. but tot of the living conditions at here and other place .. i mean cost of living .. is still so much difference .. what can i judge bout that .. i even tot if by next yr i move back to home sweet home .. where should all my computer's stuff and tv and dvd player should put .. after that immediately get a hi-fi set .. hmm .. after that it's perfect ..
well i think too far for the time being don't i .. well

hmm .. heard jie jie coming back from nz le .. haha .. hope so la .. Including family members and those that are concern .. don't pin too much hope .. even i her didi i also dare say .. well ..
but the money you earn there is much much more higher compare than here .. hmm .. i understand ..

Jus now .. that Fucking proton sage got problem again .. this time ventilation problem .. the thermometer shoot up too high .. worry me alot .. cos if tis car goes down de bloody drain ..
congrats .. after that .. you be taking bus again .. so must take care of ur own interest .. haha ..

hmm .. nth much to be said .. went gym today .. worked out for two to three hrs .. after that went for malay food nearby .. was too freaking hungry that i could't bother .. hmm when i was abt to carry my spoon .. my hand was also trembling .. what a relief .. i did some tough workout .. too much for me .. haha .. well like ppl say no pain no gain .. what the hell ..

singapore trip

2008-07-16T10:47:00.000-07:00

last few day i went back singapore .. hmm .. went back for argent matter .. well that's all i could do .. hmm.. the rest is wait for other ppl .. hmm .. don really understand why working life is so boring .. hmm .. when i went back singapore .. haiz .. went a few places that really memories of the past still exists .. and runs through my mind .. well i am glad that the happiness you seek for is appealing and sustaining ..
hmm .. last few days .. went out with some old time friends .. went out for a drive .. initially was quite bored .. serioulsy .. cos we don even know where to start with our destination .. hmm ..
my bro .. Ah ann .. hmm .. we sat down and talk men's talk .. hmm .. went to yishun crystal .. sang sang sang .. initially no mood sing de .. but went in and "burn ppl " sang de song .. well .. not that appealing to de ear .. hahha .. hmm .. found out that he was still living in his past .. just like me .. moving on strong and hoping for a better tml .. well .. many things in life don really turn out the way you expected or appeal it would be .. obstacles will always be there to hinder ur way .. hmm .. got a little frustrated when i saw him like that .. it somehow's reminds me of my fuck-up past ..
we had our good time and fun .. as always without fail .. but money seems to be a major problem ..

than last few days when i was about to go hm .. traffic jam in the custom .. like abt 11 pm plus .. well i had no choice so i made a illegal u-turn .. what the hell .. don tell me those ppl in their right mind won't don that to ..
went back to my friends hse .. found a friend hse to taunt for the meantime .. hmm .. Ray de stead .. told me many stories .. make me so irritated .. but somehow it may me face life upfront .. hmm .. Advice them what to do and all this .. hmm .. well don really wanna see history re-happening on other ppl .. well it always do .. but .. depends ..

hmm .. talk to her last few days .. glad that she is still satisfy with her life .. at least she's more grown up now compare to last time .. Hmm i learn this phrase when i was 16 yrs old .. Learning to love some1 is easy .. but learning to give her up for her own happiness is difficult .. well .. not much of a word or much understanding .. but going it thru .. means alot ..

well .. don really understand .. have i change .. or my kan-jiejie have change .. felt that we don remain the same as b4 .. don really know how to ask her .. i had seen her thru her going thru ups and down and vice versa .. but .. for a person to qns another person seems so inspeakable ...
Jiejie .. you know who you are .. i mayb be childish and playful at times and hot-tempered at times .. but you always seems to be that guardian that guides my way thru .. but .. have time really come in between us .. well .. for all it may come .. let the bond between us tell the truth ..
for what it comes for what it may seems .. everything loses it place and time .. wish you all the best ..

wednesday

2008-07-02T09:16:00.000-07:00

today was a noraml day .. hmm .. reach upon site upon 9 am .. did't want ppl to complain abt this and that .. sick of it .. hmm .. fuck .. want me reach there quick quick to see how stone drop izzit???
from electrical to kinectic to potiential energy izzit ??
fuck .. i learn that before .. i just can't stand the nagging and all those attitude i have been facing .. lucky it's my job .. seriously .. don't drive a person mad .. drastic means will always be found .. trust my words .. i don't like pressure and nagging ..
today went for gym .. train and tense my muscle .. see ppl train .. they always push their limits .. and encourage ppl more and more .. hmm .. suddenly i am just too indulge in gym-training .. Don really feel a bit of strain in my muscle .. went for a big makan after that .. pizza-hut .. well i learn how to reward my self everytime .. but as i went to de toilet .. the waitress clear my food .. my god .. but what can i do ..
just say nvm lor .. than walk away .. If i complain also communication problem .. scare they don't even understand what i say ??
nvm that ..
after went home .. slack at home bout an hour or so .. went for a shower .. after went for a drink .. Even though there's no night life for me at here .. i try to blend around ..
after Kan mummy say why i can pei "some1" drink drink " .. than no time pei her drink .. i was like stun for quite a while .. hmm
Hey, but seriously compare to tiffany and her .. One heaven one hell .. know what i mean .. the most 'potential' girl you can have .. and what not .. but think bout what she said .. hmm .. i am just living in my past .. But if you were to ask me if given a chance to regain that life i once had .. i would rather say NO .. cause .. many things i have experience .. have gave me a differnt view in life .. Maybe tiffany is just a duplicate in my love life .. but .. many things she explain to me or share with me .. seems so different from what i what i have experience .. Kan mummy say next time pei her driink .. hmm .. if i am available alright?? .. Kan mama .. When you laugh really heng xiang WO de kan jie nehx .. funny character ..

Today i drink a bucket .. standard de .. anymore of beer .. i would be like YO AR YO .. so cnt .. must act couscious .. my father say the principle of drinking is right???
Must have limit first and foremost .. But if you suddenly drink More than you could drink maintain it .. I seriously lost what i used to be abled to drink .. mayb it's jus the amount you are abled to go in between .. Suddenly nv drink for a few days felt something was missing .. veri de kao wei .. well.. Its jus a habit i have to maintain .. or suppress it .. don wish to be like my father"s brother .. whom die of liver cancer ..

Well suddenly thought bout the past .. maybe so .. maybe .. i am just thinking bout the past .. abt what we had or somehow experience .. hmm .. but After knowing tiffany .. it brought me to realised that many things don't really seems to be unknowingly real .. her appearance gave me much knowledge .. maybe it's just a dream .. or two .. but .. i am satisfy that at least i once had those days .. Now listening to Ai Hao Tao Tao .. To some1 there's meaning de .. Sang it to her a few times ..

What KAn mummy meaning i still don understand .. Kan mummy once said i was stupid to be like this .. ?? But .. Mummy .. When you once you had these memory that no once had ever been able to give you .. it really different .. i promise mummy i would always accompany mummy to whenever she would call me .. just for the sake of it .. by than i think i would somewhere else enjoying my life .. Before anything else ..

Tmr would be an important day for both me and my father .. going for a meeting at somewhere .. hope everything would go smooth .. And What it beholds would come true .. Other than that seems immaterial .. Money speaks louder than words .. Whom agrees .. Say hell Ya ??
HMM

monday

2008-06-30T06:55:00.000-07:00

today was a normal normal day .. hmm woke up late as i did't heard de alarm .. think the alarm purposely de .. finally wokr up abt 10 am .. went for a shower than out i go .. went for a hair cut .. as it getting thicker day by day ..
than when for lunch straight away .. here comes this chaw siew peng aunty giving attitude .. hmm .. First thing first .. You should be lucky that you are born as a women .. second thing .. I jus wanted by plate of chaw siew peng .. give attitude cum lan arr ..
Chao chee bye .. i where offend you .. ??
nvm .. What a boost for my day ..
than when in to workplace abt 12 pm .. than as everything is running smoothly .. i can't be bother too .. since there is't nth to question abt .. so i went in my office and read newspaper ..

than tiffany call me back .. ask me whether i was free to fetch them to seremban .. So since it was running .. i agree .. anyway there was't anything to look at since it was raining ..
meet her at 2plus like that .. brought them to animal vet .. tiffany's cat took a anti-virus vaccination .. than we shoot off to seremban .. took the high way down .. heading towards jusco ..

than upon reaching there .. they went to shop for vodka and japanese sake .. kinda sort of like vodka i think .. As it was her last day working there .. ask me whether i would like to come over .. but i was like .. WHAT .. You treat i drink .. i rejected .. say i was busy and all .. wanted to save money .. giving all the excuses all i could think of .. she previously offer to open a bucket for me .. but nah .. Not used to girl treat's ..

than we went for pizza .. order quite alot of food .. than firstly the drink came .. So call 7-up .. When i drank .. WoW .. it taste more like so Soda water .. Just a mixture of Gas and water ..
Hmm .. i call upon the waitress ..
this was what she say .. this is 7-up .. than i reply .. seriously this don't even taste even abit like 7-up .. Than she was wordless for a moment .. hmm .. than she say i will change it for you ..
hmm .. their service was like .. buai song buai song type .. fuck la .. buai song stay at home lock urself up don come out .. What a day for me .. So much surprises at every point of turn ..

than i eat four pizzas and the chicken wings .. speaking of the chicken wings .. since when pizza hut serve cold chicken wing .. my memory always serve me right ??
So i Jus say aloud .. this pizza-hut have a veri bad service .. this time lazy to complain ..

than i went out for a smoke .. came back tiffany paid the bills .. haha .. quick arr .. than we went ta bao sushi for her lady boss .. than we shoot straight back ..

damm damm sian .. i should be playing at some place .. enjoying and living the life of a teenager .. Did i really make a wrong step .. ?? perpharps .. Be it or not .. i learn to carry on with life ..

wednesday outing day

2008-06-26T11:12:00.000-07:00

its been a long time since i started updating .. well did't had the time to update .. last few days was boring .. basically we did't really know what to do ..

hmm .. we went up to kl with tiffany on wednesday .. we drove up .. to sungei wang .. it was a good thing that she knew how to got around .. she was like a map .. quite a short drive up there .. but i don't exactly knew the road around there .. hmm .. after that we went for shopping .. brought a shirt with jieyong .. think it was 50 bahx .. quit a nice shirt .. after that we continue walking and walking till time pass ..
was hungry at that time .. but they say since ltr going eat buffet .. jus tolerate awhile .. than she brought us walk here and there .. like there's is no tomorrow ..
we ate at a restaurant think it was a japanse cum cuisine place .. basiacally you pay a certain amt of money .. than you eat till ur fill .. but there was a a time limit ..
As we ate .. we talk and play .. chat abt stupid thing .. any stupid thing you can thing of .. i order a few food .. but after trying it .. don't really suit me .. basically mayb i more used to western cuisine .. than after that we walk here and there .. than we went to pudu there .. went for the pasar malam .. HMM .. alot of ppl look after there sia .. kaoz .. just a fucking pasar malam .. hmm .. kuala lumper is really big .. can't imagine if i got lost there myself .. than we went to pavillion at kl also .. jus right opposite where we ate .. that particular shopping was ment for the rich .. everything was expensive and luxurious .. did't really brought anything at there ..

hmm .. the day before we went to drink .. as usual went there to kill time .. can't think of anything else to do .. went there play hand game with Mama .. damm she was fast .. lost to her so many times .. so quick to response .. than notice there was a girl keep looking towards us .. but could't care less .. seriously .. cause at the first place we went there to relax ourselves ..
sang a song or two .. than we went home .. the rest i would not want to say nor share ..

Some times i really wonder why do people like to stare here and there .. i tot tis type of thingy onli happen to small teenager .. hmm .. stupid .. just don wanna go back my old road .. no future and fucking hell no life ..
Really tot for a while why .. still don understand ..
Just wanna live a simple life .. my life i having now is perfect ..
well .. things don turn out the way you tot it will be ..
hmm .. be going down singapore another month .. to celebrate bai b'dae .. promise her that i would come .. but still have to save for it .. hmm .. today quarrel with dad .. was seriouly piss off .. forget it ..

spoil my mood ..
than at home we woke up quite late today .. than we quickly went to the kitchen to cook ..
than cook two packet of maggie mee .. two eggs and a fish .. as long stomach not hungry can le ..
than we at room play stupid things .. jus for the sake for fun ..
lick here and there .. hmm .. play till the whole bed was in a mess .. hmm .. laugh till stomach cramp .. hmm ..

saturday night ..

2008-06-21T22:31:00.000-07:00

hmm .. we got drunk at friday night i think .. don really rmb the exact date .. today was a boring day for us .. we stay at home practically the whole day .. feeling weird and all .. especially during the morning ..
and i was suppose to wake up and work .. my headache and hangover got the better part of me ..
hmm ..

nth much to write really .. all i can say it after ytd night .. so much for nth .. just wanna bless you bahx .. you brought back lots of memory that seems flashing back .. Am i still hanging on to the past .. or is it i am running away from facts of life .. well ..

Got really no mood today .. don understand really .. awhile more we would be going kl .. still trying to wake up jieyong .. ytd we went to pub and drink .. he drank water and i drank the remaining liqour that we previously brought . that chivas don really taste right even with green tea .. well

thursday outing day

2008-06-20T01:18:00.000-07:00

ytd jie yong came over to nilai .. together with my parents .. well it's been a long time to since we last meet up .. so i came home at abt 6 plus ... after waiting for abt 45 mins to get the bloody car washed and clean up .. after that when home for a quick shower laze around for quite awhile .. as usual ..
than we went for pizza .. near by .. eat till our fill .. hmm .. less than rm 50 ..
than we went home to rest till abt 10 .. than we went out again .. went to inti colleage that side for an hour of pool .. than went drinking at the same pub .. ithink that the best place in nilai alr .. well don expect much .. as before we went to even higher standards of pubs around singapore ..

than we order a bucket of beer with two royal stouts .. to mix with caslberg .. well not many know how to drink this type of mixed beer .. the taste don't seem right ..
had some chat around here and there .. talk here and there .. quite funny ..
than after that jieyog told me there was a guy looking at him .. basically staring at him ..
so i told him jus forget it .. don be silly enough to create trouble

ten minutes ltr .. i wanted to went to the toilet in the pub .. as there were sitting there .. than there it goes they also started staring at me ..
As if i owed them a hundred of millions .. it got me stucked up .. well .. it got me aggitated .. so i spite in front of them .. and than walk away .. after coming out of the toilet .. i walked again .. passing thru that table .. well tis time it was like special care for me .. at least two pair of eyes were like tracking me .. well .. again .. i spite again .. Testing my bloody patience Huh ..
and they were like older than us let's say two or three yrs more .. that table itself sat at least four ppl .. did't really notice ..

If let's say they are really some sort of teenagers .. they would react to it ..
but so much for acting big .. No use la .. i already played my part .. but You guys did't react .. You think you guys first time huh ..
than when i walk back to the table .. i can't remain my cool .. for no apparent reason .. as i was abt to walk out .. she look at me .. but my temper alr came .. so can't be bother to much .. than much praise of words came out of my mouth .. Intentionally .. Go home sleep laH

but partly i have that thinking that becos the girls at the pub ask them to walk away .. well for wad i am not sure .. they practically outnumber us in both size and number .. but well ..

than jieyong went to the toilet .. the guy that i practically spite at him .. was not very happy .. than the next thing i knew was .. he kick the lamp-post .. Is that the best you can do ..
after that went in the car ..
and boom they were off ..
i was like well ..
partly when i came back .. not really sure who told me to give them face .. not to create trouble here .. i gave my word .. so i practically sat down ..
Well i have an own self believing principal where by if i promise someone or anyone that i gave my word .. i would practically act as if nth happen .. its like swallowing your anger .. but ..

working days are simply boring ..

2008-06-18T06:49:00.000-07:00

well today woke up late as usual .. did't even hear the alarm ring .. or was i to indulge in my sleep .. well a uncle today told me why would i even bother to go drink beer or anything and stay up late at night ..

hmm .. well this is what teenagers do alright .. for now is like that .. as teenagers i dare say no teenagers really practice a good and healthy life style for the time being .. Don really understand it too .. Or it is just me running away from my troubles .. troubles that i refuse to face or accept ..
but beside than that .. it's really boring over here .. what else more can i do to kill time ..
teach me than ?? but i do occasionally go for a bottle or two .. i see no harm to it .. at least in my point of view .. don't u know drinking beer also keeps the body healthy .. i mean as in small volume .. not those ppl where they get themself piss-drunk and not knowing a thing the next day ..

well i sign up for a gym nearby my house .. well what can i say bout that gym .. facilties aren't really up to date .. but it could keep me for fit and always invenerable to sickness .. at least to say .. when was the last time i was really sincere and serious about keeping fit .. i think back in my secondary school days .. well as you grow older the lazier you become ..

hmm .. finally i got her number .. so much for everything .. but things isn't the way it seems .. so much for everything .. at least i know that since it's the start of my career .. the least i should begin it is to understand what actually goes around .. mayb not fated .. who's knows .. but she really assemble like my old girlfriend .. its like a photostated copy of her .. Wish her the best bahx ..

Am i really hiding from the e facts that has already happen .. i seems to be indulge about this everytime i sit down and think bout the past .. memories of late seems to flash back in my mind .. so curious why is this happening .. i always get dream of my ex girlfriend .. but to me .. it's already known to me that it's impossible .. well .. things don really got he way you want it ..

tuesday working life

2008-06-17T02:26:00.000-07:00

today woke up late .. hmm .. cos utd night went drink .. just a barrel nia .. just to relax myself .. well finally my claims had been processed .. at least now got a little bit of cash .. gotta split it up .. so that i can save .. around 3 thousand plus .. little yah??

going to open another savings account three days time .. the damm monthly interest is onli 0.2% .. if my calculation are right .. it would be still a slow process to save up to 20 thousand .. the downpayment of a car ..

Is there any solution where i can earn fast cash .. one dollar earn one dollar .. or like 1: 1000 ..
there's good isn't it ..
bored today .. nth else much to do .. well decided to stay at home .. gotta clean my room up ..

well ..
hmm xiao bai brought a samsung soul alr .. yah one way or another she got it .. at a veri veri low price .. tot of getting it too .. but .. its' like triple the price she got it ..
wait till the price drop lor .. hais

satuarday outing

2008-06-15T02:50:00.000-07:00

It was a normal weekend for me .. when a friend of mine call and told me he was at Klia airport .. and that he was stuck as his flight was delayed till the day after .. I was at work when he called .. so i rushed out and did't know how to get there .. so my parents took me there .. after that we came back to nilai .. relaxed ourselves till late .. than we went to a nearby shopping centre .. to drink some coffee .. after that my parents went home ..

than it's like teenagers outing .. well mayb a bit bored .. as there were onli two of us .. and the entertainment and facilities for night outing is't that much here in nilai .. so we decided to go to a local pub cater for teenagers or precisely for young adults ..

at first thought of getting chivas to drink .. as both of us did't drink for a long time since .. but the price was like two hundred plus .. my god .. one month of my savings .. so we decided to order beer .. two buckets in all .. we drank till like 1 am in the morning .. well we had fun inthat particular pub .. we sang songs and more songs ..
those local malaysians there were like veri confident in singing .. both of us were veri impressed ..

well .. after that we went home .. on the road .. some where nearby my home .. well guess wad .. road block .. PUI .. the police were all malay .. and i did't really understand what they were hinting us .. starting i was like veri stuck-up .. insisted this and that .. they talk to me as if i was the one owing them a millions reasons why should we be hold up .. i insisted i get a breathlyzer test .. but my friend teddy was a singaporean .. well i cant afford that he goes in trouble with the law .. as he will be flying the very next day .. i was veri sarcastic at that time .. well I was well known for that .. since young .. hmm ..
but realising dragging time till late was't to our advantage ..
at first i told them .. don't talk so much .. just give me the summons .. and i requested for a breathlyzer test .. but to my shock .. there was't a breathlyzer .. hmm .. i tested them to see whether they had that device anot .. but no response to it ..

after that i told the warrant officer .. the person in-charge .. at least have two crabs under his belt ..
i told him i don have much time to spend my time here .. i give u 50 dollars and we go .. he agreed .. but before that we argued alot .. i was like testing my luck throughout ..
Guess what we got caught for .. not waering sit-belts .. It was like wad de fuck .. than they told me i had to go hospital and my car got to toll away .. i say i don have much time entertaining .. it was like 1 plus in the freaking morning ..
after that moments later .. the lower-ranking officer brought me to my car .. told me to keep my money as there were passing-by car .. so i told him to bring his hand come ..
i crushed the money and he passed my documents to me ..
we went inside the car and went off ..
before that i honked at the warrent officer and say bye ..
well .. i was lucky that we got off safe .. as if i would get involve more deeply .. teddy would't be flying ytd .. no point anyway ..

i really wonder does this road-block have a warrent letter .. or a letter whereby its states that it is official .. and who is the main in-charge person .. they had nth in their van .. no police car ..

today .. monday working life

2008-06-10T07:20:00.000-07:00

When the alarm clock rung this morning .. i was very unreluctant to get out of the bed .. As the night before i was Practically awake the whole night .. thinkin abt every possible way to save up .. every Small matter worried me .. well Life's are always like that .. nothing in this world seems so perfect .. Look around and tell me .. even the World's richest people might have a possibilties to fall on their feet .. In the business sense though .. nothing impossible ..
well today took one of my colleage's family to a nearby local supermarket .. hmm .. the expressions on their face .. reminds me of how i used to behave and easily got excited upon as my parents would take me out too ..
Especially the young baby girl .. Was so scared when i appeared and say hi to her .. her action were so funny .. naive yet cute .. hmm .. even close the door upon me .. hmm .. thanks though
I really imagine although their family are alot less fortunate .. but they still are able to live life normally .. so humble .. well mayb people will think that am i stupid to send them here and there .. well .. you are wrong .. when's it comes to your turn .. that sense of satisfaction and able to see parents coexist with their children are just simple ..
they took me to at a local malay eatery nearby .. well the soup with bee hoon was spicy .. nice .. be back for it some other time .. well they pay for the dinner .. thanks yah

Perpharps staying in nilai was a good thing .. my stay here allow me to be independent and more knowlegdeable .. it allows me to smarten up from time to time .. and give me an whole in-sight view in working life .. well as for working life .. sucks .. why must there be money in this work >>
As rebellion and stuck-up character i used to have .. perharps now i began to understand the depths and meaning of working life ..

Well tomorrow i am going to check out the interest rate in all the local listed bank in nilai .. Gonna save hard for the future .. well wanna actually know which bank provides the best intertest rate .. mayb ten years down the road .. i would save about 20 thousand .. provided if i continue on with what i plan to do .. That's like already a downpayment for a car ..

sunday night

2008-06-08T10:20:00.000-07:00

today life seems exceptionally boring .. kept my self to the bed for the whole day ..
today went drinking to kill time .. felt that thers's nth better to do .. so so dull ..
well realised the dj there was very sarcastic .. the pub was known as explode .. wad drinks do you actually .. just beers and more beers .. hmm .. with this type of drinks .. how your bloody pub will " explode"
.. lousy .. even the songs are not up dated .. this is 2008 man .. even the dj don't know their stuffs around ..

well, all i can say that she's occupied .. hmm .. well nothing in life seems so blissful .. in everything there's a barrier .. for you to overcome .. well i am just going it thru the hard way .. but well .. no point for me to go there anymore .. maybe life is jus like that .. when the way u expected it to turn out to be .. '
some how things turns complicated for you throughly ..

at least tis time its much more known .. to be ..
i once thought .. but well ..
wish you good luck in your future life in turn to come ..

maybe what my god say is true .. i have to give an answer sooner or later .. no point running .. i think it's time to give an ans .. pessimistic i may sound .. but it's better to believe than to suspect ..

seems everything came crashing down on me .. when will my luck change ??

sunday like seems boring

2008-06-07T10:02:00.000-07:00

everyday life seems boring .. seems there's onli black and white in my life .. i have to face everything by my self .. why is this happening .. i prefer the life i used to lived .. everything seems so dull and unrealistic .. today i went for a drink at a pub .. well .. all i can say that pub .. haha
cannot make it .. really cannot make it .. teaquila shots also don know how to make .. lan oie .. i teach you want not ..

today

2008-06-07T05:37:00.000-07:00

today was a boring day for me .. stayed at home the whole day .. sleeping and sleeping .. there's was nth much to do since it was a holiday .. did't even knew what to do next .. so so bored .. tommorow is another holiday too .. wonder how will i pass this time .. mayb travelling to kuala lumper and take a walk around .. what the fuck .. everything seems tumbling down .. where would i be the next ten years .. what job would i be taking .. why my days in the future seems so unclear

the dream i had .

2008-06-06T10:37:00.000-07:00

well due to the boredom i experienced in work .. i think its better to let it out .. one way or another .. recently i had this dream .. such a weird dream seriously .. really wonder was i awake at that time .. i dreamt of my ex .. well in this dream it goes like that , We reconcile after a freaking long time .. well the dream was sweet .. Too good to be true .. i reall y wonder would it really come true .. well everytime i sit down and drink a couple of beers in the pub .. i would just sit down there and wonder why my love life would be so drastic .. Never had happy ending nor being bless .. Are we in our age .. teenagers jus too naive command our way of life .. i really screw up my love life thru this few years .. jus nth in return but memorable places and gifts .. well , in there's a saying according to the chinese "its better to be loved than to love someone " .. so where do i fall in this catergory .. Or everything is just pre-destined ..

Last few days i went to this pub .. well sort of ktv .. veri veri normal .. where you buy some beers .. normally in a bucket .. Than girls from that club would accompany you chit chat .. talk bout everything there is to be say
Than this girl came along accompanying me .. chit chat ..
well she kinda resemble like celesta .. cheerful and outgoing .. Kinda regret that i never chat with her longer ..
she was very busy .. but she made the point to came back entertaining me ..

Than a few days later when i went back bascially to see her again .. that night was fun though .. most of the people were drunk .. well without a doubt me as well .. kinda dizzy .. she hint me many things .. but i was too slow to react .. wonder would she be there tml ..
haha .. when they were singing the songs i like .. the next thing i knew she took the mike and sang along .. almost all the songs i sing .. But i just don have the courage to ask her ..
kinda long though .. wonder how long i was't attached .. so cheerful .. my god ..

jus me

2008-06-06T09:46:00.000-07:00

Still wondering though .. Considering many facts should i or should i not touch up my tattoo .. Well
its going to cost me my one month salary .. And of cost a month of endurance .. Look at it quite weird though .. Even if this time i am going to touch up .. I want it nice and without a hesitation .. Whether it's worth or not .. My days here at nilai are boring man .. My god .. Facing the four bloody wall everyday .. Finding to keep my self busy .. Kinda regretted agreeing to work up at here .. Dod't know it was this boring .. Even the pubs here are boring .. Nth compare to the ones i went before .. kinda low-class ..
but anyway i promise my parents i would work here at least a year .. After that my choice .. haha .. that's include my freedom .. kinda young to work at this age .. i should be somewhere on this earth enjoying and partying my self to an older age .. after that working life
Trust me working life seems so dull .. It add only black and white colours in your life .. Anyobdy please comment me what should i do with my existing tattoo ??
Gonna save up the extra bit of money for my samsung soul .. By that time , the retail price would drop quite abit ..